As I half-sit, half-lay in bed on a Sunday afternoon with my puppy next to me and my laptop sitting on my lap, I am watching “The History of the Eagles Part I” on Netflix and reflecting on how so many musicians (not just the Eagles) were a bit of perfectionists while up and coming. As humans we tend to focus on other people’s “success” as IS, but forgetting the fact that we all go through ups and downs along the way. What is “success” anyway?
Why are we so obsessed with being perfect IN ORDER TO BE successful?
I started thinking about my own purpose on this planet and how I am a recovering perfectionist, but it still plagues me as I keep creating my content in leaving marks in the world. In fact, as I am writing this right now I keep deleting my words and altering them, or I just give up in frustration, retype them, and move on to the next sentence. I did say I am a recovering perfectionist.
How did I become such a perfectionist? It started after a traumatic moment in my younger life. When I was a kid, my room was such a MESS all the time. I remember my mom constantly telling me, “go clean your room!” However, once I had reached my teenage years, I went through some mental and emotional trauma, and it was like I snapped into a completely different person. From that point on, though I did not realize it at the time, I was trying to control my surroundings by having a very tidy and organized room. I was always one to make A’s in school, but my urge to be perfect in the sense of receiving grades of 100 became stronger. I hated change. I thought change was a loss of control, so I tried everything to keep things from changing. Life won.
I had a mental breakdown one year while in college.
From that point forward I knew I had to make some self-changes in order to survive in this world. While it wasn’t my utter low-point in life (that came later on at 26 years old when I had my FULL revelation), it was definitely eye-opening for me. I realized I was piling way too much onto my “plate”. I was trying SO HARD to look perfect, to BE perfect, and I had lost control. I had lost ALL control of my “perfect” life. I had lost ALL control of myself.
We all have unique gifts to express
Each and every one of us has unique gifts in this world. There is not a single person on this planet filled with over 7 billion people that doesn’t have a purpose, a gift, a message to convey and to completely OWN while on this journey. We are so addicted to struggling, to hustling, to leaving our footprints in perfection before we depart from this earth. We are so consumed by looking and being perfect that we FORGET how to truly LIVE. We forget how to truly think and FEEL. We forget how to truly BE one with our soul and one with the Universe.
Success can be just as disconcerting and frightening as failure- Don Henley
Who cares about being perfect, attempting to be perfect, and pushing ourselves to the point of exhaustion by thinking we have something to “prove” to this world and to ourselves. This is NOT life. This is NOT being in alignment. This is NOT freedom. This is NOT living by our soul’s truest purpose. How can we share our gifts to the world when we obsess over being so perfect? Perfection IS imperfect because it’s not real, it’s not true to who we are, and it’s not a genuine connection to our soul’s purpose. It’s perfectly fulfilling to be full of imperfections! Embrace it, live it, OWN IT.
So as we continue on our soulful journey that we call “life”, it’s super important to remain in what the Eagles refer to as a “peaceful, easy, feeling” and to “take it easy” along the way. Life is too short to obsess over being perfect, for we only have today and we are not promised tomorrow.
Besides, being perfekt is NO fun! 🙂
Journal Girl Jaclyn
PS- My published book, Don’t Feel Stuck! is now available on Amazon via paperback and Kindle. Go buy it, go through it in joy, and OWN your unique gifts because you are a total BADASS at life. Cheers!