These past two days have been ROUGH on me mentally and emotionally. Normally I am a HUGE hustler, but in all honesty I feel I have been run over by an 18-wheeler and I feel defeated as fuck being an entrepreneur right now.
I started my business almost a year ago and while I have accomplished a LOT this past year, I still sometimes suffer from the comparison syndrome: I keep looking around at all these people who seem to have it all together online in their businesses and I ask myself, “how am I different? How can I help thousands of souls all around the world AND BE DIFFERENT? How do I stand out from this crowded cyberspace?”
Then I got a kick in the ass from my multi-millionaire business coach and she gave me the mental shaking I needed to receive: even if I didn’t have this business, even if I didn’t make a single penny doing my soul’s purpose work, would it REALLY make a difference?
This brings me to the point at hand: what is your SOUL telling you?
Strip away the online fakeness that tends to circulate and have us feeling like we aren’t doing enough in our own lives. Strip away those negative voices in our heads telling us we “aren’t good enough”. And yes, even strip away that green ink on paper we call money- a lot of people online pretend to have a lot of money anyway. Note: I said “pretend”.
I was actually feeling sorry for myself yesterday. I was having a bit of a pity party because I PRIDE myself in being honest. I PRIDE myself in being real. And I PRIDE myself in working my ass off in life. But I will swallow my pride and tell you I lost touch with my soul yesterday. My EGO came to the surface. I was whining and complaining to myself, to my business coach, and to my own boyfriend. I was feeling so fucking sorry for myself. And what did it do for me?
Absolutely nothing other than keep me submerged within a negative vortex. I got my much needed reality check today and I realize now that THIS IS ALL part of THE PROCESS. What I didn’t realize until now is that I was meant to go through this downward spiral for almost 24 hours because I AM SHEDDING fearful thoughts and beliefs that no longer serve my soul for its highest happiness in life.
I feel like a snake shedding my dead skin. I feel like I’m slithering out of my old and limiting thoughts and beliefs because I am LETTING GO and RELEASING what is holding me back from a mental and emotional standpoint. How CAN I grow and evolve as a soul if I continue to hold on to what NO LONGER serves me for my soul’s highest purpose? How CAN I do my soul’s purpose work if I, myself, don’t grow and evolve as a human being?
I realize now that I’m completely NORMAL and I’m completely HUMAN. When I listen to what my soul is telling me, it’s telling me that it’s okay to shed these fearful and limiting thoughts, and it’s okay to sometimes have internally downward moments, and that what I was currently thinking and feeling is coming to the surface so that I CAN grow and evolve even MORE SO into my version 2.0 badass superhero that I KNOW (my SOUL KNOWS) I am and beginning to show in life.
This time last year I was super scared to be on audio or video. Now I am frequently doing both, kicking my fears to the curb, and I AM helping thousands of souls all around the world every day. Whether or not I make a cent from it…that’s truly up to the Universe of WHEN and HOW. Yes, I CHOOSE to ALLOW IN monetary wealth, but my soul truly feels if I weren’t even making a cent doing what I’m doing, well fuck it, I’d STILL be doing this anyway because it’s a HELL YES for me within my soul! I’m MEANT to be publishing books to help so many souls in this world, I’m MEANT to be blogging like a badass, I’m MEANT to be mentoring and coaching so many of my soul-based, soulmate souls because this is what I’m CALLED to do in my life.
My question for you is: what is your SOUL telling YOU?
And furthermore, are you FOLLOWING what your soul is craving? These kinds of growing pains are perfectly normal to have. It’s perfectly normal for me to have fears around leveling up and around investing even MORE into my business. I’m recording my audiobook of Don’t Feel Stuck! this weekend. I’m also editing my second book right now. Yes, I still have cyber fright (kind of like stage fright, but in the cyber world) despite the fact that my book has helped thousands of people. What if my second book doesn’t do as well?
No matter what we are all feeling and thinking, we must ALWAYS mentally have a “wake-up” call and ask ourselves: what is our SOUL telling US? Are we following our soul’s calling? Because if we are not, and we are making choices based out of FEAR, we are going to REMAIN feeling STUCK in our lives and we will merely be paralyzed while time continues to tick on and we grow older.
This is what’s truly defeating (staying stuck and stagnant in our lives due to fears). Most of what we fear doesn’t even come “true” anyway, unless we give a lot of power and focus TO IT.
So keep going! You are doing so much better than you realize! And no, I’m not a robot: I’m just like you and I have my “shit” moments as well. It’s a choice in how we CHOOSE to respond to these moments for the long-run. What is our soul telling us?
My soul is saying: keep going, Babe. You’ve got this!
And I KNOW you can keep going and you’ve got this, too. Follow your soul, keep plugging away at your dreams because one day you will look back and say to yourself: thank gosh I didn’t give up! Keep showing the Universe what your soul truly wants! Have your crying fit and pick yourself back up because you ARE a total badass at life. You’ve got this!
Journal Girl Jaclyn
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